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So, here I was writing out my who am I post about the type of guy I find myself drawn to. In writing about that I had to write a bit about being shy and I finally figured the whole shy part should probably be in its own little post.
Last night I went out with mum and Doris. At one point Doris had asked me if my mum had ever told me the story she told mum about Nathan (Doris’ grandson). In particular what Nathan had said about me. At first I had no idea what she was talking about, but as soon as she started telling me I realized mum had in fact already told me this (a long time ago). Way back when I was little I had spent a lot of time playing with Nathan. Mum was still working at the newspaper in West Salem and thus she was still working with Doris. Both Nathan and I were close in age, so I guess it was natural they would set up play dates (for a lack of a better word) for us. Hmm, I think it was probably a couple years ago that Nathan had told Doris that if I had only talked more, he could have very well seen himself end up with me. Ha! I just did not talk all that much to him. That is how I was when I was little, though.
When I was little I seriously would not talk to anyone who wasn’t in my immediate family. I was that shy. The teachers could never get me to talk in school and often mentioned it to my mum during conferences. She, of course, would just laugh because at home you couldn’t shut me up. I still remember the night I was quiet for five minutes at dinner and my dad made a huge deal out of it. I didn’t talk all day in school, so I had to get all my talking done at home and before bed. And, well, even then I’d talk in my sleep. Haha.
If you know me now, you know that I’m not nearly that shy anymore, thank goddess. Over the years I slowly got better about talking to other people. First it was family friends and well, teachers in school. For the longest time, however; I had the hardest time talking to strangers. I don’t think it really was until I started working at Burger King (junior in high school) that I started getting more comfortable talking to strangers. That came about because of the people I worked with and ended up hanging out with a lot. They were all outgoing and they weren’t going to let me get away with being shy.
As the years have gone on from there I’ve gotten better and better about not being shy. I honestly don’t think I’m that shy anymore. Yes, I’m still a little uncomfortable around people I don’t know and I might not talk a lot to people I don’t know. It’s not that way with all strangers though. It really depends on the person. I find I have no problems talking to some people, while others it might take me a while to warm up to them. Well, unless I’ve had a couple of beers in me. Then I’ll talk to anyone and not have a single problem with it. Haha. I’m quiet compared to someone who is more outgoing, but a lot of people can’t really tell it’s because I might be shy.
I’ve never really met anyone who had a problem with me being on the quiet side. That is until Willie. I guess in the end he had a problem with it. I guess he felt like he had to apologize for me not talking a lot while I was down there visiting him over Christmas. That kind of makes me paranoid now. I am not that quiet of a person unless you are a complete stranger (and I haven’t been drinking or I haven’t taken an instant liking to you). Now I just can’t help but think maybe I am entirely way too quiet. And as stupid as it is, that just makes me not want to talk to anyone I don’t know. If I don’t talk to them at all then they aren’t going to talk to me obviously. Then I won’t have to explain to them that I am a somewhat quiet person and it takes me a while to warm up to certain people. But, once I get to know someone I have no problems talking to them a lot. And I won’t have to worry about them deciding down the road that I am too quiet for them. *sighs*
Yes, I’m still a bit shy. Not so much anymore that people really notice it. I just come off as a quiet person. It’s not like I don’t talk to people I don’t know at all. If they start a conversation with me, I’ll talk back to them. I just generally don’t start a conversation with someone I don’t know unless I’m comfortable with them. That is all my shyness is now.
Last night I went out with mum and Doris. At one point Doris had asked me if my mum had ever told me the story she told mum about Nathan (Doris’ grandson). In particular what Nathan had said about me. At first I had no idea what she was talking about, but as soon as she started telling me I realized mum had in fact already told me this (a long time ago). Way back when I was little I had spent a lot of time playing with Nathan. Mum was still working at the newspaper in West Salem and thus she was still working with Doris. Both Nathan and I were close in age, so I guess it was natural they would set up play dates (for a lack of a better word) for us. Hmm, I think it was probably a couple years ago that Nathan had told Doris that if I had only talked more, he could have very well seen himself end up with me. Ha! I just did not talk all that much to him. That is how I was when I was little, though.
When I was little I seriously would not talk to anyone who wasn’t in my immediate family. I was that shy. The teachers could never get me to talk in school and often mentioned it to my mum during conferences. She, of course, would just laugh because at home you couldn’t shut me up. I still remember the night I was quiet for five minutes at dinner and my dad made a huge deal out of it. I didn’t talk all day in school, so I had to get all my talking done at home and before bed. And, well, even then I’d talk in my sleep. Haha.
If you know me now, you know that I’m not nearly that shy anymore, thank goddess. Over the years I slowly got better about talking to other people. First it was family friends and well, teachers in school. For the longest time, however; I had the hardest time talking to strangers. I don’t think it really was until I started working at Burger King (junior in high school) that I started getting more comfortable talking to strangers. That came about because of the people I worked with and ended up hanging out with a lot. They were all outgoing and they weren’t going to let me get away with being shy.
As the years have gone on from there I’ve gotten better and better about not being shy. I honestly don’t think I’m that shy anymore. Yes, I’m still a little uncomfortable around people I don’t know and I might not talk a lot to people I don’t know. It’s not that way with all strangers though. It really depends on the person. I find I have no problems talking to some people, while others it might take me a while to warm up to them. Well, unless I’ve had a couple of beers in me. Then I’ll talk to anyone and not have a single problem with it. Haha. I’m quiet compared to someone who is more outgoing, but a lot of people can’t really tell it’s because I might be shy.
I’ve never really met anyone who had a problem with me being on the quiet side. That is until Willie. I guess in the end he had a problem with it. I guess he felt like he had to apologize for me not talking a lot while I was down there visiting him over Christmas. That kind of makes me paranoid now. I am not that quiet of a person unless you are a complete stranger (and I haven’t been drinking or I haven’t taken an instant liking to you). Now I just can’t help but think maybe I am entirely way too quiet. And as stupid as it is, that just makes me not want to talk to anyone I don’t know. If I don’t talk to them at all then they aren’t going to talk to me obviously. Then I won’t have to explain to them that I am a somewhat quiet person and it takes me a while to warm up to certain people. But, once I get to know someone I have no problems talking to them a lot. And I won’t have to worry about them deciding down the road that I am too quiet for them. *sighs*
Yes, I’m still a bit shy. Not so much anymore that people really notice it. I just come off as a quiet person. It’s not like I don’t talk to people I don’t know at all. If they start a conversation with me, I’ll talk back to them. I just generally don’t start a conversation with someone I don’t know unless I’m comfortable with them. That is all my shyness is now.
